It's been a HUGE week. First off, I met my niece for the first time this weekend! Super exciting! She is precious and seriously I think the most behaved baby I've ever met. Although, I gotta say...babies aren't my thing. I am just not good at it. Maybe one day...hah. But I in no way want a kid right and really not for another 10 years. haha. Seriously though....I will be great at being patient I think. I also got a job this week! So stoked. Working at La Jolla Kayak. Don't really see a much better way to spend the summer than giving kayak, bike, and snorkel tours in La Jolla. It'll be a weird summer without camp, but hopefully this job will make it worth it. I also found an apartment that is awesome! Can't wait to move in there with the Franc-dog. So good. And now I am about to pick up Ashley Carver from the airport and she is visiting for a week. I mean, what could get much better? Lovin life.

where here is there and when is from

grey clouds on my skin

leave me wet with dew

its something that never began

that unforgiving residue

I had the chance with you

but the clocks turned once again

driving in the open for hours

music blaring above my chin

drown out the thoughts in my head

got to move on, but once again

its not a tie to be cut

just a bud in the wind

because you never know what will come

where here is there and when is from

don't leave my life, it could be so good

let from be now, there has begun

will you ever know, ever know

where im at, where you're in

bicycle into my heart

and think, think, think again

don't know if you're there

not sure if i am either

how do you know when its the birds and bees

summers here, wish i could be there

because you never know what will come

where here is there and when is from

don't leave my life, it could be so good

let from be now, there has begun

make a wish on the shallow star

draw it in, but not too far

come too close and up goes my guard

go to far and and it gets hard

meet me there under the tree

we can lay all day just you and me

we'll pick grass and be so free

and we'll gaze as far as we can see

because you never know what will come

where here is there and when is from

don't leave my life, it could be so good

let from be now, there has begun

True friends Stay friends.

I really do love my friends, which is why this is getting to be a lot harder to leave Texas in less than a week. If you would have asked me my freshman or sophomore year of college whether or not I thought I was going to end up in California again, I would have said hell no. It's funny how life always comes full circle and how home will always be where my family is. I don't regret coming to TCU for a second. I admit to it being a sort of quick, irrational decision, but it did happen and it happened for a reason. I would not be the same person if I didn't spend three years at TCU. I think that I am a totally different, better, and more well-rounded person than I was before and this experience is what shaped that. For those of you that don't know, I am transferring to SDSU in the fall (well, I hope...I get my actual acceptance letter mid-May...so I guess we'll see). This past December I changed my major for the 4th time to Secondary Education in English, which makes me have 2 years left of school no matter what (bummer). But my recent revelation this year has been that I do want to go back to San Diego to teach and coach after graduation and getting my teaching credential in California is going to be a lot smarter than getting it in Texas. So, here I go...off to California again to finish out school. I'm nervous, scared, but absolutely thrilled at the same time . Most people know that there are a lot of thing about TCU that drive me up the wall and it's not exactly the first time I have thought about transferring....so I think this change is going to be really good. Just got to make some friends! I'm going to miss the jeepers out of my friends here at TCU and in Dallas and no one will ever be able to replace them. But I am so confident that I won't lose touch with them. Good friends, true friends, stay friends. End of story. And I look forward to everyone coming out to stay with me in beautiful San Diego!

"Hey, how are you?" "Good..."

"Hey, How are you?" "Good...". Sound familiar? I was walking to class last week and went through this exact "conversation" without even a slight ounce of emotion in it. Then I thought to myself, what a dumb answer. What the heck does "good" mean these days? It's just a cop out answer that means you don't really want to talk to that person right now and you would rather just keep on walking. I'm guilty of doing this everyday, but what if we really started answering people truthfully? I'm not quite sure if it would be a good or really bad thing. Because if it were a terrible day and I was asked how I am, I might just start cussing and say how miserable I am, which is not a fun burden to put on someone else when they were just trying to be nice. On the other hand, I like the honesty factor of it, so...I'm split. How refreshing would be it though to actually answer "How are you?" with the truth and have a legit conversation with someone instead of just passing the kind gesture by? So, I think my new goal is going to refrain from using the word "good" in response. I'm sure I'm going to fail pretty hardcore at this for a while because it is just a bad habit. (ps-If I get a ton of messages or people asking me how I am just to see if I answer good...how rude. haha) Seriously though, think about it. We're selling ourselves short I think.