Life, God, and Lil' Wayne
Today I was reminded of the joy in taking life day by day and the importance of having good people around you. I was also reminded that Lyle (my car) can apparently go 16 miles (at least!) after the gaslight goes on.
A friend and I cruised up the mountains to Breckenridge this morning to have a jolly day of boarding in paradise. During our drive, we were discussing how tough it can be to want to plan our lives out to a T, how do we know when we've met "the one", how do we truly rely on God and our friends and family before trying to figure it all out ourselves? We answered these questions in between singing and contemplating the inappropriate lyrics of Lil' Wayne songs. Life, God, and Lil' Wayne....or something like that. Let's start with the first topic: Day by Day.
I've said it before, but this has been my theme over the past 2 years. I've moved from Texas to San Diego and back to Texas. I've moved from Texas to Colorado. I changed majors 5 times in college and I've changed jobs 6 times in the past 3 years. I'm about to leave my job at Apple and move to Wyoming for a month, where I will be living in Sinks Canyon State Park and taking a Wilderness Emergency Medical Technician (WEMT) course. After I return from my WEMT course, January 27th, I don't know where I'll be, I'll more thank likely be jobless, and I may be homeless. Now, that's the absolute worst scenario. However, I will be a certified EMT afterwards, so that's a big bonus. The point is that my life at this point has a lot of unknowns that I need to learn how to be okay with. I've applied for the NOLS instructor course, but who knows if I'll get into that. If I do get into it, do I instruct full time and be gone a lot with no real home base? Or should I spend my time now officially getting my teaching certificate so I can teach and then work for NOLS during the summer? If I don't get accepted, where do I go from there? Become an EMT full time? Pursue music? Find another outdoor company to work for? Get my masters? Become a snake charmer? Go back to Apple? Travel the world? Work for a camp? Learn to knit? I mean, the options are endless! I truly feel like the world is at my finger tips. How do I plan for this? The only theory I can come up with is to take life by the horns day by day. See what doors open, and see what doors close, then make decisions from there. If anyone else has any other theories, please share.
Topic 2: "The One" -- Everyone says you know when you've met "the one". I think I believe that. But all I'm going to say for now is that boys are confusing and us girls over think everything. That's right boys, we know we do it. In all honesty when it comes to this topic, I would love to be in a relationship. That would be marvelous as a matter of fact. I'm a very patient person, but I feel like I've waited long enough. Haha. It's strange to think about my future decisions if I do end up in a relationship any time soon. Not that I'm the type of girl that's going to give up everything for a boy, but I do think I would alter plans to help the relationship I'm in. I'm at this point where I could do anything, anywhere...so if a great man were to come into my life, who knows! The downside to working as a wilderness instructor full time is that the possibility of me being in a solid relationship goes way down. So maybe there's a way to work as an instructor part time, and still make a home base somewhere, eh? This whole topic relates to the "day by day" topic in subtle, but large, ways. Ya...that makes sense right?
Topic 3: "Don't do life alone" -- This I have realized over and over again. One of the hardest parts about moving somewhere new is not having a friend base to rely on and feeling like you're cruising through life alone. As my friend and I were talking this morning, we both stated that we have a tendency to forget that God's there. Seems like such a simple thing to fix, but it's one of the hardest for me. The goal is to remember to turn to God for help, for reassurance, and maybe a smack in the face here and there. Going along with that is the importance of a solid friend group that you feel comfortable being vulnerable with. This may be a huge group of people, but for most I'd say it's just 2 or 3 people. Having those life conversations, keeping each other accountable, being a listening ear and an advice giver for one another is a huge thing. Life's hard alone, so it's worth the ten, sometimes painful minutes of opening yourself up to others so they can help clean, restore, and refresh you.
Topic 4: "Lil' Wayne" -- I mean seriously, do people really think he's talented? I enjoy his music now and then...mostly because it gives me a good chuckle because of the ridiculous lyrics and I like to dance to it...but that's about it.
Life's short, but full of hope, promise, dreams, and aspirations. One day will change the next and that day may turn your world upside down. But even doors will open upside down and unveil another possibility.
